Today was a terrible day for a few reasons:

1. I hate chance. After working so hard this summer, the standardized tests seem to be just based on luck (which I have none). It all adds up to the conditions of the day, the severity of the proctors, how I am personally feeling that day, how fast my heart beats before I walk into the room, and whether my ADD kicks in right away or a few hours into the test.

2. John Edwards had an affair -- after already being quite depressed by my Practice Test, I turn on the TV to find this all over the news. It's something I never understand or understood. Why would somebody have an affair? And I won't preach about love because I'm not an expert on that subject.

But John Edwards used to be somebody to look up to in this year's presidential race -- I thought he was a sincere man, who had a stable family and strong ideals. It was incredibly disappointing to hear about it, particularly because he also issued a statement that his wife's cancer was in remission while this whole affair happened. Though his wife and family knew about the affair, so I guess he is honest in that one sense (though he lied throughout his campaign). And what is even more despicable is that he told the press now, today August 8, 2008 -- the day the Olympics start. I guess he's hoping that the Olympics would wash away this news.

I think the whole issue of loyalty is something that has bothered me a lot, since middle school. I've found so many 'friends' who have simply tossed me aside for boys, grades, girls, the upper echelons of high school society, etc.. I'm in perpetual fear that all my friends will leave me at some point, whether by something I had done unintentionally or because I'm just the person that got in the way.

3. There's no more computer paper, and I drank all the tea. (Yes, little things bring me down.)