quick update!! erg!

despite unflattering, itchy rashes & missing out on kentucky with sam and co., i still had a fantastic weekend with asmitha. we watched the debate/the office/pushing daises/grey's anatomy (which we just laughed at) and made smores by breaking fire regulations (haha, in your face, university safety rules!).

but i haven't had enough sleep in the past month, so i'm kind of feeling like a zombie, a very fat zombie (i eat when i can't sleep). i have periods when i feel awake and then very sleepy and then awake again and then sleepy. but then it gets to a point where i don't care if i sleep or not. and then i have dreams that are hard to distinguish from reality, like i'll dream that a paper, or deadline has passed and wake up kind of dizzy and confused and then an hour later realize it was just a dream.

ugh, worse feeling ever.

anyway, of course this semester is not shaping up to be anything i had hoped at the beginning, but i think i'm learning to adjust, at least reevaluating my goals and future. i'm just hoping for the best at this point... though i'm not even sure what the 'best' situation is anymore. i just hope it's not too far from my family and sam.